Turning 50: It’s a New Day

Turning 50 Years Old. It’s a new day. It’s a new dawn. And I’m feeling fine. So fine.

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I had the privilege of turning 50 yesterday. It was a beautiful day. I woke up to beautiful sunflowers. Delivered to my front door. Flowers delivered to my front door…for ME! Oh, how special my wonderful sons made me feel. I then spent the afternoon/evening with them, and they took me out to dinner. Where I even got a couple of quick snapshots. Aren’t you proud? I am definitely going to be taking more pictures this year. It’s on my list, which I will be sharing soon.

I will admit, the night before my birthday, as it dawned on me that it was my last day being forty something, there was a part of me that wanted to dig my nails into the door frame screaming, “NO!!!!! I don’t want to leave the 40s!”

I mean, this is a REALLY big number.

As I sat willing time to stop and wanting to hold onto the 40s just a little longer, I realized all the reluctance in the world was not going to stop what was about to happen. It wasn’t that I was necessarily sad about turning 50 as I was sad to be leaving the 40s. I was never going to be forty something again. It was going to be my past. Time was marching forward. Then as the clock struck 12, I realized I was ready. God always gives us what we need exactly when we need it. And evidently not a minute before. He never fails, and He is always on time. I was now ready to say good-bye to the 40s. It was a difficult decade. It was filled with heartache, death, loss, hopelessness, depression, a head on collision, PTSD, and illness. And, with God’s grace, I survived it all. And I am floating into the next decade on a sea of bliss. I was not only ready to say good-bye to the 40s, but I was ready to embrace the wonderful years to come.

But to embrace the future, I must let go of what once was. The 50s are going to be about living in the moment and making the moments worth living. I don’t think I got that in the 40s, at least not completely. I think I was too busy figuring out how to survive them. And then I did. And then I began to learn how to thrive in the storms.

So here’s to the 40s. They taught me a lot. And I get to take that with me to build on and to grow. And here’s to the 50s. May amazing experiences and blessings be waiting right around the corner.

Turning 50 is a blessing and not one that I take for granted. Each birthday is a gift. Each day is a gift.

Some people say that it’s just another day, and that it doesn’t feel any different. But what if I want it to feel different? What if I don’t want it to be the same? What if I want it to have the crisp feel of fall in the air and the aroma of new beginnings, full of hope, possibilities, and life? What if I want to make it even better…even more beautiful?

I honestly did not know how I was going to feel when this day got here. Now, I know. I’m good. Making my list of intentions was genius. It’s given me so much to look forward to, and I can’t wait to get started. I have gone from a birthday “day” to a birthday “week” to a birthday “month”, and now to a birthday “year”. My family had to know this was coming. It was only a matter of time. A year of celebrating life.

I want to live life in a way that I slide into Heaven sideways with a smile on my face, with everything I was given used up and nothing left, exclaiming, “What a beautiful ride that was!” -Simply Topaz

I have been ridiculously happy turning 50. Quite honestly, I did not see that coming. I am taking it as a sign, a sign of great things to come. A sign of a new day. Taking everything I have learned and with an attitude of liberation and celebration, I am embracing this time.

What I have learned from this has been to not look at life with the pain of the past or what is lost or with worry of what may or may not happen but with appreciation and anticipation of all the wonderful that is here and now and to come.

With anticipation. Let that sink in for a minute.

I know it may sound cliche, but when I let those words sink into my soul and feel what they are saying. My heart skips a beat as with the thrill of a new love. And I rejoice.

This was such a happy day. I love that my sons are watching me turn a big milestone with such a celebration of it. It will teach them how to do it one day. We are not just teaching our children how to live today, but we are teaching them how to live 20 or 30 years down the road.

Creating a list is about creating intention. It is about creating momentum. Momentum.

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What is something that you would really like to do this year? We so often get in ruts. We stop challenging ourselves, or doing the things that we really want to do. What if we stop and ask ourselves, what amazing thing would we like to do this year, and did it?

What would be on your list?

Creating a beautiful life,

~Topaz

Note: The quote was adapted loosely from another quote that has been rewritten and edited by many. This was just my version.

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6 thoughts on “Turning 50: It’s a New Day

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  3. Michele Poydence

    Happy Belated Birthday! You sure don’t look 50, pretty lady. Celebrate all year – you already have created a beautiful life and I know you will continue to do so for yourself and others!

    • Topaz

      Thank you, Michele! That is so kind of you to say. I am looking forward to a beautiful year, and it is already off to such a great start. My first weekend being 50 has been fabulous!

  4. Heather

    Happy Birthday Topaz….You’re are so Beautiful, I finally get to put a face to a name…Hope you have a spectacular day! xox

    • Topaz

      Heather! What a wonderful surprise! It was such a wonderful day. I was amazed and how much I enjoyed it and am still enjoying this whole new place in my life. A year ago, I would have thought you would be picking me up off the floor. lol Thank you so much! xo

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